Wednesday, June 13, 2018

Two Years...2 Minds


Hi everyone,
On Sunday it was two years since Mousie passed away. I think about her often, and was in 2 minds as to whether I should post or not. Grief is a strange thing. on the one hand, you need to grieve as it is a process. You also realise that at some point you have to let go and move forward, which I, as most people have (reluctantly) tried to do. 

 Then there is the other side of grief, where it is a given that you must hold on to your memories, because that is what you have cultivated with those who have past. Memories are supposed to bring you happiness, but ultimately they bring you sadness, so grief is a lose/lose situation! 
As with everyone, so much has happened in the last 2 years. There is definitely a void where Mousie was once. I do not do any pet-sitting anymore, as that part of my life is gone and I don't believe it can be re-created. I have found a cat friendly street near my locale, and always make a diversion in that direction when I walk home, so I can have a catch up with the local kitties, so there are a few new furry faces in my life. 
 In this pic, she is in her beloved garden on a summers day in 2012. She is having so much fun and looking up at me. 
I look up to the sky and think of her, hoping she is pain free, and at peace.

Thinking of you Mouse, 2 years on.

10 comments:

Eastside Cats said...

Mousie was a part of your life, and became a part of you! And it hurts when a piece of oneself is removed. Sure, it will scar over, and hurt less and less, but the scar is there forever. She is inside of you forever. Sending purrs and hugs on this anniversary.

Brian said...

We do understand having lost 2 our our sisters in the last year. Hugs from all of us.

World of Animals, Inc said...

It is one of the hardest things to deal with in life. You just need more time to heal. Mousie is looking down on you and will be watching over you to make sure you are ok. Have a great day. Thanks for sharing the pictures of Mousie.
World of Animals

da tabbies o trout towne said...

these days are never easy; we understand and send hugs .....♥♥♥♥♥

Memories of Eric and Flynn said...

When they leave, they leave us with many memories but take our hearts with them. It is not possible to let go but to adapt the best we can.

Melissa, Mudpie and Angel Truffles (Mochas, Mysteries and Meows) said...

I don't really think time heals, you just learn to live with your new normal. My Angel Truffles has been gone for nearly 3 years and I still think about her every day. All we can do is cherish our precious memories.

Summer at sparklecat.com said...

Purrs to you. My human's soul cat died in 2002, and not a day goes by that she doesn't think of her.

M Dawson said...

Mousie is a lovely girl and your memories of her are something to treasure. we are made up of our memories and would be poorer maybe if we let too many of then drift beyond the point of 'missing' if that makes sense, where they don't matter.

Marjorie and the Dash Kitten Crew

William’s Kith & Kin said...

We are sorry that the loss of Mousie still affects you so. We understand, though--all cat lovers do. Take care.

Cleo said...

As stated above, all cat lovers totally understand. It's never easy, and some have a harder time letting go than others. Mom and dad took a while to bring me into their home after losing Orbit, and even though I provide them with tons of unconditional love and companionship they still get sad when they think about him. Dad, especially, misses him as Orbit was a very close part of dad from the day he rescued him in a hot parking lot til the day Orbit passed away in his arms after more than 22 years. Just know that all of us cat lovers really, really understand.